Saturday, July 4, 2009

Fun Times

So... Long time no blog. Everything is fine here in my land. E is good... Work is good...

I have bad luck, as some people may know. Bud luck hasn't struck me in two weeks! Knock on wood. I am so happy, but now I am walking and then I get panic-y and think... Oh shit... I'm gonna fall. I am going to trip... I am waiting for the bad things to happen now instead of focusing on the good. I promised myself to never wait for bad things... but I can't stop...

Really tomorrow is gonna be... cut my leg shaveing, fall down the stairs, trip getting in and out of the car, spill coffee on the files at work (i refuse to fantisize about not havein coffee at work... that is just toooo bad.) get more than 1 papercut, have a cart hit my car, trip walking back inside.. It is gonna be bad when my luck goes bad again.

:) Well C U.

Monday, June 22, 2009


Yeah. So today I really have the day off. Completely! I woke up at 5 to get ready for work... then I realized... I don't have to work today! Lol. E has been awesome today too. He made me breakfast in bed (After I woke him up at 9 oclock because I was bored.) Then we went to Wal-mart (After I said it was to f n hot to stay at the house all day) Then we went to Menards... (Because this building also has air conditioning I agreed) Then we spent some(meaning lots) of time at Book-A-Million... I bought 4 books... I don't remember what they were... I couldn't find the first book in the Persy Jackson and the Olypian series, so I didn't get those... We went to see a Movie Hangover... (I loved it E hated it) Then we had Din-Din at Cheeseburger in Paradice... I had Chicken strips... Simplicity! Then we got home, and now I am dieing of heat stroke because my step dad won't buck up and call the heating and cooling people, or let me c the damn thing!!

Also, there is a new series on NBC called The Listener... It's about a guy named Toby Logan. He can read peoples thoughts, and he uses them to help them. Just watch it... "Twilight" Keeps jumping out at me when I watch it. The lead is super hot. He is very Edward-like. I Have no idea why it says Twilight to me, maybe I am just over obsessed, and I relate everything to Twilight. But the way this guy hears thoughts, and if you listen you hear Twilight names like Cullen... Yeah I know, common. And the Detectives name is Charlie Marks... She is awesome BTW. I don't know... It's on Hulu, or the NBC website. You can watch full Episodes there. It on NBC on Thursdays.

Does Anyone watch Harpers Island? I love it. Every 1 gets mad b/c I am always right about who dies. I am no longer aloud to speak my theroys about it because "I spoil the show" ... I can't even say who the Killer is.... That little girl is creepy as hell. She is so sadistic! Ung... And the guy who... wait... I don't want to die so... I won't.

In Plain Sight... I always fucking miss it on sundays so I wait an extra week, and watch it online.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Holy crap... Gues what I bought?!?!?!??!?!

OKAY! Yesterday I went to get Fathers Day prestents... Yay me right? Well I was walking down the 'Card' isle... which is really the book isle. I LOVE BOOKS. A lot.

ANY WAY?!?!???! I totally saw Finger lickin' Fifteen, the newest by Janet Evanovich. It isn't supposed to be out untill the 23rd. I told the staff. they took the books off the shelves and the manager came up to me at check out and handed me the book. I was like.. OMG. My brother and Eric laughed at me because I was happy and excited... I hugged like 3 people on my way out of the store. I read the book so fast i think I gave my boy whip lash cuz on minute I am running up the stairs and locking myself in our OVEN-room to read the next I am whippin out dinner then reading it AGAIN!

If you guys haven't read the Janet Evanovich Numbers Series... You should.
There are 14 (15 comes out the 23rd) books in this series. PLUS 4 Between the Numbers novels.

One for the Money. Two for the Dough. Three to get deadly. Four to Score. High Five. Hot Six. Seven Up. Heard Eight. To the Nines. Ten big Ones. Eleven on Top. Twelve Sharpe. Lean Mean Thirteen. Fearless Fourteen. Finger Lickin' Fifteen.
Visions of Sugar Plums. Plum Lovin'. Plum Lucky. Plum Spooky.

Read them. Love Them.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Long time... No C

Howdy, dudes and dudettes. Recently Life Stuff, has sucked me into it's huge ass vaccume bag and I was stuck with all of the dust and bunnies. I was trapped! I could do nothing to get out! I was hostage!!!
Really, I have been working my ass off. I have a full time secretary job. It shitty. I work 38 hours offically. and another 10 or 15 to keep shit up to date. It took me 2 weeks to get it up dated. NOW I have to put the rest on the damn puter. He has a Linex system so it isn't THAT hard, just boreing.
Tattoo is fuckin' awesome. Thanks Paul. I effin' love it!
Ummm... EEkkk... With the writing I have been doing for Nate's band. Yeah did I mention that? So, I am writing the lyrics for Nathan's band. He got our guys back together to screw around with the instruments in the gay-raje.... yea sorry. So anyways. I write lyrics either to music, or to music I make up in my head. Right? Then I give the guys my thoughts and they Jam. Yesterday, Nathen asked if I would sing with them at my awesome small town battle of bands. yeah I know. I am going to. It will be great! But I don't have time!!!
I might passibly need help pickin' the song we do... It has to be original. So, good thing I rock at Verbose-ness? is that even a word? Well now it is... and I rock at it!
;) Yeah boy. No, umm. The Fam is great... Except... Sisters baby daddy gave me whatever coughing sore throat can't talk normal sickness he had... Stupid AssClown... I HATE YOU FUCKER! Also, while we are speaking of him, I will NOT be cutting him into small peices and selling them on the black market to pay for my hosptial and doctor bills... if any 1 is interested...(Healthy,white,20,male,stupid,nosmoke,nodrink,nodrug...prices debateable. Call Me (210-****)

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Howdy!!!! Ohhhh.

Guess what? I am going to get a tattoo! :)
Either This pic of Sally from the Nightmare before Christmas.

Or this one. This is my top pick. I want her under my left shoulder blade.
I think I will LOVE it.
All I have to do now is talk E into getting Jack.
I may end up just getting a qutot from Wurthering Heights, or "Viva la bella vida"
But who knows.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Oh god.

AHHHHHHHHHH! Seriuosly... I am a loser... That fucking rocked! the clip AHHHHHHHHHH!

Alright... they showed ded the wolf transformation and it looked fucking great!!! AHHH Jasper broke Edwards Piano... AND Edi's Contact's fuckin' rocked! AHHHHHHHHHHHH! okay this Ben Stiller this is funny. The whole show is kind of... Umm... questionable... I can't stand Zac Effron... Bye Eric is bitching because he feels like a loser watching this show alone...
Oh and earlier, the Jizz song... Seriously?

AND! The golden suit wareing Popcorn Man scared the ever loveing shit out of me...

New Moon, New Moon, New new new new NEW MOON!

Okay... has anyone ever been UBER excited? I am. right now. I think I could give shopping Alice a run for her money in the excitment department... HAHA see department... shopping.

Anyway, So I hope you've at least heard about the New Moon set pics. Yeah their hot. I saw them on youtube. :) Happy Mee... I am also hopeing that you heard about the New Moon sneek peek during the MTV Movie Awards. :) Hmmm... yeah.

I am SOOOOOOOOO scatterbrained right now... I made Fajita's for Din-din. :) They totally rocked. Eric is being REALLY dumb right now. He's like "Calm Down. Your going to hurt yourself." and I can't... Seriously. I am shakeing from all the adrinaline... It sucks... I can't sit still..... OHHHHHHHHHHHH

Yeah, so ever had a panic attack? Ever had one in the MALL? Holy God that shit sucks ass... Some random dude walk up to me and he wrapped his arms around my waist and said some icky shit about his bed in my ear... I elbowed him in the tummy then hit his instep.... Then I kick him inn the balls, and after I talked to the Mall Security, I walked into a toy shop to get my neice yet another giraffe... THEN E came up to me and gave me a hug, then this couple was fighting and I flipped... Shit hit the fan... The dude was all over this obviously prego lady and I kicked the back of his knee and the chick hurrled herself at me!!! For serious... I remember fighting to not fight back, and when the same security gaurds pulled her off me I just curlled up in the fetal position... It wasn't an all out panic attack, but damn...

Peace Love Hearts and me.. > LIES

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Wide Awake?

When is the new chapter comming? I am going to DIE if I don't know soon.


Anyways. I went to see my neice and Sister yesterday. :) So frickin cute.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Frick Yeah

Okay, so My Mother doesn't want me to see my sister or neice. She keeps makeing up excusess like "You're to sick" "I need help" "Maybe tomorrow" "Clean up first"
To get to my sisters house it is a little less than a 2 mile walk... Not far. I run farther in the mornings, Well not since LAST WEDNESDAY! I am not allowed to go for a frickin' jog! I mean come on... My Boyfriend sleeps in my fucking room every night, but I can't walk 2 fucking miles and play with a baby? WTF? Does she think being with the baby will cause a lapse in my desicion makeing skills and then I would end up with a baby? Jesus... I don't want a baby... not now at least, I just want to play with the baby!!!

My Step Dad thinks I am sneaking around with my sisters Boyfriend. He is waiting for shit to hit the fan. Well let me say this... If I do not get to play with Samantha Renee TODAY! Shit will really hit the fucking fan!!!

For serious...

Yeah The First Offical New Moon poster!!! I don't have it... Sorry. It is awesome though.


Wednesday, May 13, 2009

HOME! Cha-yah. 9 oh effing 5


Alright!! Holy GOD! One of my sisters had her baby today!!! Samantha Renee' ... She is sooooo cute... It was so awesome, I was in the Room, with her friend and her Boyfriend! GAH! Lol...
Eric got delayed and didn't get home til today. Which sucked, because I was at the Hospital with me sista' and He was at home... Til after the Baby was born, at 9:05 pm... He got there at about 9:30. It was great to see him, even if it was only a few days, it freakin' sucked. Right now, Eric is working on putting in a wooden floor, at midnight!!!! Holy Fuck, It sucks, I think my Step dad and Uncle have talked to him more than me...
I was going to stay at the hospital, because Eric wasn't gonna get back until tomorrow, and I probably would have slept on one of those lil' fold out couch/bed/sofa things with My sisters Boyfriend, but I decided to come home and go back tomorrow morning with My friend. Eric is apparently working on the floor tomorrow also.

Well The sweetness that is My Neice was born at 9:05 PM. She weighed 7 and a half pounds. She has Daddy's Eyes, and nose, and toes, and cheeks, Everything else is her own, cept her face is shaped like Mommys'. SO FREAKIN' CUTE!

Oh, yeah my sisters Boyfriend ralphed all over me. My pants my shoes. Yeah, I had to wear aqua smurf clothes. I WAS AN AQUA SMURF!!! NOOOOOOOOOOO!!! Icky too. He ate KFC, and McDonalds... It was ICKY!!!

Sunday, May 10, 2009


Before I leave for the trip to Mikkiey's Grave, Creek is treating me to a modified Holiday. It is Mother Figure Day. Since Charrley isn't really my son. But I am the Mother Figure in his life. So Charrley and Creek are pampering me today. I get to go have a meal over at Creeks made by Creek and Charrley. I get to take Char to the park. I just get to have fun today. Apparently It is all about Lie. Charrley and Creek planned the whole day out.

Breakfast in bed.
Walk in the woods.
Play time.
Relaxin' in the overcast outside.
Fun with Charrley.
Cake. and Icecream.
Relaxin in bed Watching In Plain Sight.
Sleep Over with Creek and Charrley.

I am so Happy. LUV U GUYS! Hope your Mother's Day was fan-fucing-tabulous.!!!!!!!

Happy Modified Mother Figures Day!!!

Peace Love Hearts and > me.. LIES

-----P. S.-----Check out my FF. PLZ? Tell me what you think. I'll Never Let Go. What would make it Better? Does it Suck? Just tell me what you think, here or there.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Sadness and sleepy

Alrighty. I can't sleep alone. Weird right? I mean, first it wasn't a big deal to cuddle now I can't fucking sleep know Eric is not here. It's been about 30 hours since he left. I was awake for another 24 before that. 54 hours... more than 2 days!!! I am dead on my feet.

So today I wrote like 40 pages of absolute crap for the damned story I have been writing for freaking EVER! I also put up a new chapter for the FF I am writting. I don't know why I am writting Fan Fiction. I just decided I wanted to. It's Eric's fault. I blame him.

Also I feel icky because Tomorrow I have to go to Ohio. I am going to go to my Best Friends grave for the first time. It's like a 6 hour drive. I am going alone. I think that is the best way to do it. No need to shove my sorrow on others right? I am actually really nervous. See since the day he died Every thursday (We met on a thursday, we would always do something special) I have a single black rose delivered to his grave stone. He sent me one before he died with a letter, that I will never read. :' I know that the entire thing is just going to be one huge trigger, which will be SOO MUCH FUCKING FUN, but I have to. I have to see him. My friend Nate is going to be there for me. He left a week ago to see his parents. He and I paid for Mik's funeral, because if Mik's dad did he would never forgive me, or Nathan. lol. Well let's just say, good fucking thing nate and I can crank out some lyrics and music. So Nate stayed there and set up all the stuff and picked out what was what, and I picked his grave stone, and the words going on it... Fucking Nightmare. > 'Loving Father, Brother, Friend.' then underneith that is a quote from Romeo and Juliet, from Romeo. 'He jests at scars that never felt a wound' It means 'One that laughs at scars, because he has never felt the pain of the wounds that caused them' It seemed fitting because he thought his death would stop the pain... Wrong Motherfucker! and under that are his last words 'For You'

Peace Love Hearts and > me.. LIES - Sleep Now. Night.

Friday, May 8, 2009

.... I really don't know why

Alright, Eric is leaving for 4 days... His sister is getting married. YAY!!!! CONGRATS BABE!

I am not going. Boo Me. I am staying home because one of my prego sisters is going to have her baby any time. ANYTIME! I am annoyed, but we've had a pact for a few years. We would be together when either of us had a baby. ...So I am going to be at a hospital, with my sister breaking my knuckels because I lost a game of Rock Paper Siccsors with Her Boyfriend and I have to hold her hand... I get a cast off, I'll get another one on. She had a hugely LOW pain tollerance... How in the hell is she going to give birth? I mean, she can't even get a papercut without screaming and crying in pain. ..............................................................................................

I can't wait to be an Aunt again though, Baby Samantha Renee' Get you happy ass out of my sisters uterus.... lol

I am writing a Fan Fiction over at It kindof sucks. I have a Preface and 1 Chapter up. Mature Audiences Mostly! (CLICK HERE TO SEE IT) It is BellaxEdward...

Eddie and Bellie have sad broken pasts, and they help each other. It get's better I swear. Bella has a dirty mouth and a dirty mind, and Edward hasn't really talked much since he was put in foster care. He talks to Bella though, and she peices together the truth about why Edward is the way he is.... Yeah....

So freakin' LOST

... Alright, so lests say I 'borrowed' JJ Abrams for a few hours. Could he really have me arrested? I just HAVE TO KNOW what happens in LOST! OMFPEC!!!!!!!! I AM DIE'N! Do you think he would tell me what happens? Maybe I could tie him up? Eric doesn't approve.

And Fringe... Seriously where did scarry bald guy observer take Walter? I LOVE WALTER!

CRIMINAL MINDS... It ROCKED! and only leaves Cliff Hangers for maybe a Season Break... NOT 5 YEARS!!! I have a solid theroy on LOST, but who knows?


So, As some of you may know, The new Harry Potter Movie (Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince) comes out in 70 DAYS!!! New Moon Comes out just a few months Later. Then Eclipse. :) Then the first half of HP and the Deathly Hallows.... Then the second... And sometime in the first half of next year The Harry Potter theme park will open... I am going. I have to go. I will die if I don't. I NEED IT! LOL Harry Potter isn't the same as Twilight, but It's news right?

Saturday, May 2, 2009


lol. It was just to good to pass up, sorry.

So, today, well Saturday, was the last Show we did for Clay Community Theater's A Salute to Broadway! I think we did really well. I feel like we worked on this FOREVER!!! Lol. I made some great new friends there, and can't wait till September, when we start the next show. :)

The Cast Party was fun, I got to answer some hard questions about my past, but did so willingly. Even though I think my emotions went into SLEEP MODE... :) Luv U Ash, it really did help to talk about it. :) I got home around Midnight. It is 12 50 now, ON TO TODAYS DEBATE

So umm, the Title for this blog entry is inspired by my lovely boyfriend. We were talking in the van on the way home, and he screamed... REALLY SCREAMED... like he was in pain. There was a daddy long leg on the OUTSIDE of his window. I am dateing a whimp, what if there is a terantula between me and him and I am in danger, or hurt? Would he expect me to just get up kill the spider then re-enter my pain or near death expiriance? I mean a pause button for life would rock, but really?

We were in my room, and we were silently fighting about what TV show we were going to watch on HULU first. I wanted to watch Dollhouse. I didn't get to see last weeks Episode though so my choice was a two hour commitment, and he wanted to watch Numbers. I do love Numbers, I can't get enough of Bernard... I mean Charly... Lol (Their is a great movie... The Santa Claus) We ended up watching Dollhouse, because we agreed that Elisha Dushku was hotter then Elfie.... (I olny said it to get him to watch Dollhouse, though Miss Dushku is a VERY attractive woman... Really though Charly is to short for me...)

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Brandishing a stick, yes.

The fridge broke....
It is dead....
It died....
He didn't even give warning, he just... fucking died... What an asshat. lol.

That rat bastard! I hate shopping for shit like fridges and stoves, and washers and dryers.... It makes me feel icky. Then you have to move the heavy peices of crap...
The fridge is an asshat for breaking. It ruined my coffee creamer...

Three coffee mishaps in less than ten days!!! I hate it!!! I NEED COFFEE! I need it like I need air. I need it! :( The second mishap was the new coffee machine it has like 3000 buttons, and It burnt my coffee.

I do like the word Asshat though... A lot. See, every time I walk by the fridge I turn to it an say 'you're such an asshat' I really do, I can't get over it screwing up my coffee. Or ruining my Strawberry short cake plans... Speaking of cake, in chapter 49 of WA, Edward made a cake. Okay, suffice it to say the WA is enough to pull me from calling the fridge bad names that make my mother angry...

Eric was at the computer downstairs and I was glaring at the fridge getting ready to call it a bad name when I heard... 'Babe, DO NOT piss off the fridge! He already died and went to fridge heaven, leave him in peice.' Then after a second he said 'Babe? ... Come read to me?' Seriously? Really? After you interupt my fridge angering? So, I went to sit by him, and he pulled Wide awake up and I actually jumped up and squeeked... Like a little girl, and I clapped my hands, for about a minute before I sat down and read him the best two-part chapter EVER! okay maybenot ever, but it is better than Edward fighting with Bella right?

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Two posts, one day.

Voicing my complaints.

WHY do some store put their hard liqur (Vodka, Whisky... Ya get it.) next to the cold medicine?
WHY do some cold pills look like red skittles.
WHY is there bubblegum flavored (not sented) bubble bath?
WHY are some people such in sufferable Know-It-Alls?
WHY would one buy 8 hot dog buns, and 6 hot dogs?
WHY do people run in the rain? (Don't give me the 'I don't get as wet." Yah ya do. You run into the water instead of letting it comt to you.
WHY does hairspray cost so much money? I mean it is 'Kill the ozone layer' in a can.
WHY are the condoms either with the cold medicine, or next to food? I mean really. "Hmm, I want some white rice, and and a box of Trojans, and a box of brown rice." For real?
WHY do I let people give me gifts? I always get the worst gag gifts. ALL the time.
WHY are feather Boa's so expencivly ichy?
WHY are the directions for bakeing PIE on the bottom of the box Along with 'Do not turn this side up'?
WHY do ALL men suck?
WHAT is the point of life? If we all go to heaven in the end why make us live on earth? And if someone calls and tells me 'Because God is giving us a chance People have been quoted over and over that it is better to have the chance to fail than not at all' I will reply 'Why though? if he loves us all equally do we have to prove ourselves worthy? if we were worthy before out life spent on earth why would that change?'

Read on babe's read on.

Heart love peace and > LIES

U rn't mad, why am I guilty?

Okay guys guess what?!?!?!?!?! I got my cast off today!!! Well of my arm anyway. I still have to ware the walking cast for at least 15 hours a day. I don't have any bruises I didn't give myself, AND I am so hyped on caffine right now is crazy...

Okay so my sister who will be haveing my neice any day now, decided that Me, her, Eric, and her Boyfriend needed to hang out and talk. SOO E and I went over to his mom's place, and we sat on the couch and talked for an hour before my SISTER wanted to play Truth or fuck dare.... -I hate this game. I HATE IT! Who ever invented the game, cower in a corner somewhere because me and you will be talking about you retracting your offending game. - ANY WAY, I believe I have said before that I always pick dare, and follow through with said dare? Unless someone forces me to do TRUTH. Being the BOSS liar I am I can bull shit my way through most truths, but NO! My sister decided LIE will go first, she picks dare. Yeah. What can I say. predictable.
I always follow through with my dare, but seriously? Yes her BF and I get along... ish. We giggle, and mess around, but I don't like him like that. So, this dare has to be approved by ALL parties involved and effected, because If either Eric or my Sis weren't fine with it it wouldn't happen. If her boyfriend was not okay with MY dare I would get a new dare. Well GUESS WHAT?!?!?!?! Every one was fine with me makein' out with him. Eric LAUGHED at me. He was officially on my shit list the whole game. ANY WAY. So, I moved to sit by Her BF on the floor, and I was mentally freaking out, but appeared cool calm and collected, except the death glares I gave away freely. :) Then I said "Sis, is there a minimum of time I gotta spent touching his lips?" BAD idea. "Why, now that you mention it, ther are some other rules."

1. I had to sit in his lap.
2. I had to kiss him first.
3. A real make out kiss, not a pansy peck. (IE more than 2 minutes,)
4. if anyone, besides me, decides it went to far, or can't deal with it, They voice their opinion and we stop kissing.

nice? Well I wanted, No inapprioate touching, No weirdness afterwards, No repeats, And a crap load more but NOPE.

So I MADE OUT with my sisters baby's daddy. ICK ICK ICK!!!

To top all that shit off, I felt bad because E had to stop the kiss, after about a minute and a half. He was angry and shakeing.... I FELT GUILTY! really really guilty, and I still do...

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Caught in the Shower. Funny Akward

SOOOO, yeah, I went to my brothers house last night to talk about my book and hang out. I had a nightmare, and apparently it isn't condusive for a baby's sleep if somebody in the house is screaming in their sleep.... Who knew? Lol... Well I dremt that I was stuck watching my best friend end his life..... Shitty dream.... ANYWAY...

I got home around 9 on Saturday. I gave Eric a hug and he lifted me up and carried me up atairs and kissed me... He had icky breath. I told him that he needed to bruch his teeth and take a shower. He said no. So I took him into the bathroom and 'convinced' him to get naked while I turned the shower on. I pushed him in the shower while it was still cold... he screamed and pulled a fully clothed me in with him... While we giggled and shreiked, apparently my Step dad woke up and came to investigate. The bathroom doesn't lock, so I was in trouble... He burst in the door and yanked open the curtain to see me in my purple bra, and black jeans, and Eric star naked covering his 'manhood' with my white tanktop. I thought murder was going to be commited, I mean really, so easily this could have been mistaken for something more than it was. It was just me tryig to make my Boyfriend Stink less. My shirt came off because he said if he has to endure shrinkage because of the cold water I have to have harp nipp... well anyway back on track. My step dad was frozen staring down at the two of us laying on the floor in the shower (It isn't a tub shower, it is just a shower with a curtain) side by side, partially and completely naked. I was looking up at his face in horror wondering if it would make it worse if I moved away from the cold water still running over me. So then when my Step-Dad opened his mouth, my 16 year old brother walked into the bathroom and locked eyes with his Dad and they both started to crack up laughing. I sat there dumbfounded. Seriously? He was laughing... Now I am going to quote him.... I swear on the fact that Eric is still alive. "I'm sorry, I'll just leave you guys to do what ever it is you were doing, but,.... Umm. Could you, keep it down? If your mother hears she'll have us dig our own graves. Sorry, really." FOR SERIOUS? did he just say 'Okay have sex with my daughter in the shower? it's okay but please keep it down?' On his way back out the door he flipped a condom into my lap, and laughed saying ''Here, be careful"

SERIOUSLY!!!! So, I turned the water to warm and Eric was still sitting on the floor, not moveing. I kneeled down and he was like "Did all that just happen? Was I naked on the floor of a shower with you and your dad came in?" "Yup. Babe, now PLEASE for the sake of my nose, and cuddleing take a shower!" by this time my jeans were soaked and freezing, and my shirt was still in E's hand. Then he was like "I believe we were in the middle of something before you Dad rudly interupted us..." I rolled my eyes and peeled my jeans off, then wrung my hair out and flipped it.... I laughed at E standing in the stream of water watching. Still holding my shirt. I tossed my pants to him, and walked into my bedroom to change, leaveing him all alone in the shower! HA HA HA! Freaking HA! I decided to keep teasing him because it was funny and I picked out a sheer top, and matching boy shorts/unerwear things. It covered me up, but now enought to go aywhere but my bedroom. I sat on top the covers and waited for him to come out of the bathroom so we could go to sleep. He walked out of the bathroom, and to the closet with just a towel on, which he did on purpose. Then came to bed wareing some silky boxers, with the words 'Cock Tease' on the ass. They WERE mine, I got them from my sister as a joke, I got her a huge pink dildo. But to see E in the boxers was so funny. and now He is reading and I am blogging and this stupid top when I lay on my tummy almost lets my boobs fall out. I hate that.

:) SOOO, anyway now that my friends and Family know that I am a 'cock tease' I think I should go. That is all he has called me for the last few hours... It is my new name. All I gotta say is he pops a boner in my boxers he is in trouble.

Weird how something you feared most turned into something so funny I have stitches in my sides thinking about it.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

:) Yup thats because I rock! (T- Language)

Wanna know how I first met Eric? Check it out on his blog. Which is mostly about me or Him and I. LOVE YOU ALL!

Yeah, I do I really really ROCK! I am The Master of Disaster. Why, one may ask? Well I would like to know who your asking because I would like to ask him a question myself. WHY THE FUCK ME? Every one has a 'why the fuck me' moment. I had mine today. And "Every other freaking day of my life." -Yup I quoted shaggy right there.

Well my day started with a run, where nothing went wrong! I was so happy, I mean I was beyond happy, I didn't trip or anything! I got home and all of my brothers and sisters actually listened and we had EXTRA time in the morning before school!!! Holy SHIT! My day started out SOOO good. Everyone was on the bus and off to school on time! So at 8:00 I watched 'Crossing Jordan' while I cleaned up in the kitchen. Yeah I did! Eric came down right at the end, and I gave him eggs and sausage and bacon, I even made his toast for him.
THAT is when the Coffee machine ate fuck dust. It bit it, right in the middle of my pot of expensive coffee I got from my aunt. THEN I dropped the damned coffee pot while I poured my cup anyway. I have a coffee cup I use everyday. It says 'I do not have any addiction' on the side then on the bottom it says 'Now please give me my caffine back before I kill you' ... I LOVED IT! and I dropped it, on my foot. while it was full of HOT fucking coffee (sorry mom).

From 9:30 on my day has been HELL! I had to go to the ER for the cut I got on my forearm from the stupid coffee pot. The ER doc was like, 'Hello, my name.... Oh, Lie, it's you... I'll go get what I need to stitch you up." Seriously? Dude, I mean they don't even have to ask me questions anymore! My life sucks!

Eric laughed when I complained it was sunny while we bought a new coffee machine, then he laughed because I was complaining about how crappy caffine withdrawl is so I went through the McDonalds drive thru and guess what? They didn't have coffee at the moment they would be happy to give me a large pop and a cupon for the next time I went through a MD's I could have a free coffee. Seriously? I didn't want pop, I wanted coffee, and it would be 20 minutes before they had coffee. It sucked, I got a coke and my cupon and pouted as I drove home.

Eric was laughing at me, and my mom yelled at me for leaving the broken coffee machine plugged in. Seriously? I mean I cleaned up the rest of the kitchen AND left her a made plate of breakfast and the first thing she does is bitch at me when I have had NO coffee, and broke my favorite mug.

I spent the rest of my day on my computer, writing my story, which Eric is begging to read. I only let him read what I am positive about. I have my Step brother Proof stuff for me, and he helps me when I am stuck. Eric bitched because I left him with a huge cliffhanger. 0;) yup.

How would you feel if one of the main characters that you LOVED died to save someone? Really in a fantacy story how would you feel? If a character you loved died? Would you kill the author?

BTW, anyone who can tell me what the fuck is going with LOST, I would appriciate it. I LOVE the show, and I watched this whole season, which cleared some stuff up, but I am confused, and tired of watching OJ commercials.

Monday, April 20, 2009

I hate EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!

Alrighty, I am a model daughter. I get up in the morning, clean the kitchen, make breakfast, get my bro's and sis's ready for school, allow others to sleep in, clean some more, go for a run, clean again, make lunch, clean, then I stay out of the way until I get the rugrats off the bus, then since I have usually done my share of the day's cleaning I retreat to my room and read or talk to Eric. Nice of me right? The kitchen in my house is always spotless (unless I don't cook) the living room is always in perfect order. And seriously I say one thing along the line of a curse word in front of my mother then suddenly, EVERYTHING is a pig st-i(How the fuck do you spell that?)

I was cussing because my toe collided with a very unforgiving coffee table. The rat bastard table.

RANTING OVER, well about my grounding that is.

ERIC! holy mary mother of fuck, I don't even want to write in the blog what you did because my FAMILY reads my blog. I cannot believe you were so cocky at the damn table. I am sorry for hitting you, I am not sorry for make you sit throught the dinner with a woody. Love you babe, your fault.

WIDE AWAKE CHAPTER 48! In all honesty, I didn't like that it wasn't the reunion I was hopeing for. I wanted hugging and sorry's and crying, and acceptance. I got all the bad and only a little of the good. ;'''(

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Psssh, what do you mean? No, I did not!

Wednesday I went to a party at my friends house. There were only about 10 people there. We danced and drank, we talked and all that jazz.

Then it was announced we play truth or dare. Of course with 4 guys and 6 girls, this game was less than fair, but still fun. Of course I never back out of a dare, I always pick dare, because Truth is never a safe option when you are playing with more than one of your ex's, and girls who know stuff that could REALLY suck if everyone knew. I got dared to kiss my friend, not a big deal. There was also some VERY lude jokes made. I think my favorite was my friend Kris sitting on E's lap and E's face turned purple trying REALLY hard not to get.... hard. Some of the other dares were normal, some were rediculace.

I woke up ar 6:30, laying with E on my left and Creek on my right.


Saturday, April 11, 2009

Yeah, because I am a penical of innocence.


Right, so lately I have been doing a whole shit load of reading, and writing. I now own EVERY James Patterson book. I also read every book Janet Evanovich ever thought about writing. Iris Johanson, and ummm, shit what's the lady's name who wrote all the books with the alaphabet leters? Oh well. Also, daily I read one of the stories by the brothers grimm, to my siblings, and one of Edgar Allen Poe's shorter storys to Little Charrley. :) I also re-read Wurthering Heights, and Jane Eyre yesterday.

I wrote more for a story I have been developing for freakin' EVER! GAH! I wrote a few short little song-things too. HA! :) There is a TINY bit of the story at the end. Forgive the run-on's and obvious errors. I write, re write, Edit, then print. Well I just wrote this then pasted it so, please no pitchforks and burning logs!

Decided for my new tattoo, which I will be getting VERY soon. (Sorry Mom, but I do like to whole tattoo process. It rocks.) Well anyway, It is a quote from Wurthering Heights. Heathcliff says it to Cathrine's ghost. It's pretty well known ish. "take any form drive me mad, but do not leave me in this abyss where I cannot find you! Oh God, It is unutterable! I cannot live without my life. I cannot live without my soul." Yup. That's what I am getting! In Carmille Demo font at I think wither 24 or 36. Oh yeah. I am really excited, now I just need enough money to do that.

Some rockin' songs that I can't stop listening to: Fireflight-Wrapped in you arms, It's you, Unbreakable, Hungry. Iron and Wite-Flightless Bird. Jamie O'neal, Like a Woman, Somebody's Hero. And TONS of Hard rock, that I will NEVER get over, no matter how many times I am told it is just a phase. :) Plus, LOTS of stuff by my buddy. He writes a shit load of music. I usually supply that music with lyrics. We briefly had a band, we still hang out when we can, but we relized that even though I can sing and play drums and he can play the guitar and piano that we needed REAL lives because there is no way that our band would have gone ANYWHERE. We were choosy, persnickity about music, and he hates being onstage. We were doomed from the begining. We did do some smaller gig's though- A story for another time since this post is huge anyway.

-----Harmarien's Story----- (He is not the main character, this was just to good of a moment to pass on writing. Hope you love it.)

Pronunciation Key.
Harmarien= Harm - Air - Ean
Medieleah= Med-E-Lee-Uh
Gennyphier= Jennifer (Luvs ya!)
Blue Demon- Peaceful beings
Fire Angel- Usually hateful things who love violence.

Harmarion had many travels and adventures before he came to this village. He came there for death, and ended up with new life.Hamarion was one of the royal decendants of the Fire King whose name was long forgotten, and he was the last of this bloodline. He planned to die the day he met the beautiful woman on his walk down the winding road that lead to the royal cemitary. He was going to keep walking foreward to his impending death, when she tripped over a small tree root and dropped her basket of vegitables and fruit. He was not used to being kind, he had never needed social skills on the battel feild, but he felt compelled to help the woman recover the scattered belonings. He knelt down, a few feet from her and started gently placing the long carrots and small apples back into the hand woven basket.Judging by the state of the ladys clothing she was nothing more than a commoner. He held nothing aginst the Common people, but he had never really been that involved in their affairs, that was always his now dead brother. Her dress was faded lavender, with some kind of wornout design laid into the stitching. The fabric couldn't have been protecting her from the pelting sand or the baking sun. Her shoes were barely more than a single layer of animal skin, surely they couldn't protect her small delicate feet from the hard and stoney path. Her hand grasped the basket when all of the baubles had been replaced, they were so small, her hands. Surely she couldn't carry that heavy basket back to the village, it was nearly 10 miles from this place. She did, to his astonishment, lift the basket easily and braced it aginst her waist. She looked up at his face for the first time, with her mouth slightly open, as if to speak, but no words moved from her lips. Her face was the most beautiful thing he had seen in his many years. Here eyes were nearly the only give away of her race. She must have put a lot of effort into conceling. They were dark, almost as dark as night, but they were not black. No, they were midnight blue. Beautiful Blue. Her face was very balanced, and evenly proportioned. Her lips were full and the top was a bit smaller than the bottom. Her brows, that had been pressed together gathering her things, now were smooth and perfect. Her hair was long and golden brown. She seemed almost angelic. She only stared at the tall man with dark hair in front of her. She slowly regained control of her self and closed her mouth with a very quiet snap."Begging your pardon sir, I didn't mean to..." Her voice was shakey and scared. What had he done to frighten her? Why did she need his pardon?"Ma'am, I'm afraid it is I who should be sorry. You need not appologize for an accident. You merely tripped, and I helped you collect your things again." He told her, his voice was calming and pleasent. This was strange to him, he had never felt so at ease with anyone before. He had no wish to find a fight, or even continue on his path to his death. He just wanted to keep talking to this girl, this common girl, who wasn't even his own race. She was still, and silent for a long moment, and he wondered why she seemed confused, and then relized the answer. It was so obvious. He was a Fire Angel. Normally one would have burnt the food and the basket as well just to cause a ruckes. He was about to talk when she finally spoke again."Thank you sir, your help was much appriciateed." She had turned to continue on the path the way she had been headed before she had stumbled. She seemed to be in a hurry, either to get away from him, or to hurry home he wasn't sure. He didn't know if he should stop her or just go on his own way and forget her. No, he would not forget

Friday, April 10, 2009


Okay Eric is moving in tomorrow. Well okay so he already lives here, but he offically MOVES IN here tomorrow. I am actually really excited!

ON TO WIDE AWAKE! Okay, so apparently chapter 48 is about half way done. I am UBER HAPPY about that. Also, I am uber sleepy. And, uber un-hungry.

Today my mom's stupid Dog named Mauser got out. He enjoys running around and won't get back inside. My brother and Eric ran after him for an hour. I wasn't allowed to because I am all broken, and I always get hurt. So after an hour of watching the guys chase the dog I grabbed some bologna (Thank god for that stupid commercial 'cuz oscar meter has a way with b-o-l-o-g-n-a.') and walked outside and called for the dog 2 -count them 2- times before he came running through E's legs straight at me. Mauser is 60 lbs of muscal. Add that to the fact he was running at around maybe 25 mph it would have hurt if he hit me. So I did what any normal girl who has a huge ass dog barreling at her, I hit the fucking deck and hoped that he wouldn't step on me. I hit the cement hard and Mauser slobbered all over my hair when he ate the bologna from my hand. -just so you know when you have a shit load of bologna in your hand and you make a fist it molds to your hand and feels gross, I suggest NOT trying it.- Eric grabbed his collar and helped me up. He laughed at my hair, and said it looked like some really BIG guy decided it was the best place to aim his, umm well you get it.

All in all, a very NICE day.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Criminal Minds

Last night Jackson Rathbone was in Criminal Minds. He makes a really hot lady. Kinda still manly, but a lady too. Anyway, when he found the clothes in the dresser, then turned around, he had this very Jasper-y/Edward Scissor Hands look on his face. He played his character(s) so well, he did amazing! I love the way this episode was put together, it was so well thought out, and well played. I loved the quick Reid flashback to when he was reidnapped. I loved (in a way) that he feels almost responsible for Amanda locking Adam away. I liked the little bits of Reid going to the prison where Amanda/Adam were. Did I mention I liked Rathbones Wig yet? When he was the amanda side of his character he looked like someone, but I can't figure it out yet. Wow, Entire post on Jackson, I was super excited that he was on this week I have been waiting for this episode FOREVER!

Yesterday was also the day that LOST was on. I can't watch LOST on TV because this stupid little town doesn't fucking get ABC. Therefore I watch LOST online. I didn't watch the last Episode yeat so I have a two hour LOST catch up scheduled for 12:oo today, right after my awkward time with Eric downstairs. Yay me. We apologized last night, and we talked about shit. Yay me... The only thing left is to show me mommy that we can be civil after a fight because until our face to face apology at 12 last night the entire house was on edge. Then after it every body started to breathe again.